friends.

Well the landslide will bring it down

Fri, 10 Aug 2007 04:56:06 GMT

First person is already leaving...

Is this actually happening? Are we real live going to college?
I guess this isn't goodbye but and I'll see you soon. Yeah, I pulled that card. On an optimistic note, I think when we all come back it'll make those times even more valuable and more precious. But for now, reality sucks and goodbyes suck more.

Crazy story.. I was going through my old CDs and I found this random mix that had the HAWTTEST (yeah, I must have spelled it that way back then) songs of the time. Surprisingly enough though- amidst tracks by J.Lo and rapist RKelly- I found the Dixie Chicks' cover of "Landslide" and I think for the first time I actually understood the song.

Well I've been afraid of changing
Cause I built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I'm getting older too

TO NEW BEGINNINGS... cheers!

I'll miss you tom.

love, g

Cool, calm, collected

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 00:20:31 GMT

Hello livejournal...
I haven't visited in a while..
I can't believe a new year is starting again.
Neverthelessssss.... I feel like all loose ends have been tied... new beginnings are soon to come... and that this is truly the start of something good. WOOOO I think I put together every quote and song lyric I liked this year to come up with that. lol
I hope this year is better than the last but I know the only way that can happen is through my own will.

I now realize why I hate writing in here. You can never say what you mean or mean what you say.

EVERYONE HAVE A GREAT& SAFE NEW YEAR!!

p.s. karma is a bitch ;)

GMT

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 19:41:06 GMT

ode to talia:

talia is my bestfriend

i love her

i couldnt live without her

shes amazing

shes to die for

shes charming

she'll b $14 away in college

talia is the best

the end

FROM NEW YORK BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 17:20:13 GMT

so lets talk about this. im in fucking new york city with fucking becca my life. i'm living here.. end of story. and we're in the COOLEST mac store ever. and the shirts are mad cool and i really want one. i told the guys that i would search for them on ebay.... there are many hott guys here and i might jizz myself. well i'm done with this pointless entry, this black guy is on myspace on the JUMBO screen im kinda embarassed for him. anyway, miss you all and love you all. be well everyone and dont worry i'm being good... for the most part. from the adventreus of rivkah and gabii, GMT PS- DASHBOARD IS PLAYING TOMORROW! DONT WORRY I ALREADY SLIT MY WRISTS! PPS HEATHER ND CHLOE JOHN MAYER JUST CAME ON PLAYING IN THE MAC STORE HAHA <3

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 15:09:48 GMT

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 21:22:52 GMT

ITALIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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ITALIA GANA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW IT

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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When I step into the water..

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 13:16:19 GMT

It's raining. It's funny becase I can see the sun peek out and its blue sky at its side, but there appears a grey cloud. The rain looks like the fuzz that comes on a TV screen when the antenna is moved.
I walked outside to test out my bike for a ride with Heather, and suddenly out of nowhere, thunder struck. Of course, I cursed the day and spoke of my bad luck. I was sour and in a bad mood. My mother asked a favor of me and I mummbled something and did as she told. I had no energy and wanted to just go back to sleep. What a waste, I thought.
Now, I cant help but think. Why do humans react that way? Why do we overreact and feel as if the world is out to get us, only us. No one else suffers, no one else comes across misfortune, no one endures failure, mistrust, disappointment. When things fall out of line, we lose sense. Many times, you hear people say not to react on impluse when you are mad. Why does this happen? Why cant we think straight or speak correctly when we are angered. Or maybe we are speaking truthfully and that is what we reject. Do we reject truth? "I didnt mean what I said when I was mad." Are you sure?

Well the day is clearing up and I am off to a wonderful bike ride to enjoy these limited days.
Go do something wonderful today.

A dance to the day,
G

from jason mraz

Sat, 03 Jun 2006 01:39:45 GMT

From his latest entry Jason Mraz posts:

...Think about how fast we are already capable of receiving information. Google affords us the luxury of learning anything. Athletes are running faster and breaking more accomplished records than ever. But it won’t stop there. Our children will grow into an even more complex society and run even faster races. There’s no stopping us.

So why do we stop ourselves before doing something we really wish we were doing?

...My math doesn’t show us how old we are or how smart I am. That’s not what matters. What matters is that we’ve only got one shot in this conscious state. The rest is left to the Gods.

Life is wonderful. I just pray you’re taking notice.

love,
g
P.S. We found Shadow (my dog)

i hope you're happy.

Sat, 25 Feb 2006 16:52:53 GMT

something has changed within me
something is not the same

at work and figured i'd update a little. i'll recap on LA was an incredible experience. worth ever dollar made at work. more on that later-

things are going umm busy. things are busy. i like to keep myself busy if not it'll all just bring me down

i'm not going to say anything because there is nothing to say. does that make sense?
lets not make problems for ourselves. things could be worse =)

brother's graduation very soon- cant wait.
cant wait to graduate myself.. cant wait to leave this damn city.

take a good look at me,
i wont be here for long =)

why has it been raining so much?
mm gmt

...is ever gonna bring me down

I’ll take what I can get and read from it a means to be in love.

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 00:34:39 GMT

okay i know i just updated like a day ago and i was bidding farewell to all but i just have to show everyone this.. or atleast anyone who reads this. so i was reading jason mraz's journal and i decided i'm going to clip little pieces of it. -why you ask?

after reading his entry i thought wow. that's it. whats what i feel and those are my answers.. yeah i know he's a celebrity and i'm just a kid in high school.. but we both are humans. and both feel, speak, act, question. best of all: we both put up with life's shit. so read this if you'd like. it might just apply to you as well.

" Despite my own efforts to not react harshly to certain inconveniences, I still found myself aggravated during a simple game of scrabble. I sit uneasy after a mediocre performance with a busted guitar. I go to sleep early insisting I’m doing it for health and beauty, but really it’s to avoid my shame and depression. On and on my mind churns these horrific images of being struck by a car when I should just be enjoying a leisurely stroll minding the shops and seaside villagers and birds. Over and over again I ask myself what a girl does 3000 miles away over water and land, knowing damn well the last time we spoke she referred to me as her baby and spoke with a lovers tongue. My mind plays tricks on me and the Gods must be crazy to test me. It’s only been about 5 days into this journey around the world and I swear to myself I’m never going to make it.

.....Then I stumble upon a magic shop. Runes I thought, the first thing that came to mind. Without hesitation I went inside and purchased a set.

I held the bag in my hand for a few minutes, shuffling the stones through the velvet purse. When I reached in I even let my fingers stir the stones a bit longer. It was as if I was expecting to pull what I better damn well need. I didn’t need another let down on this trip. And I certainly hoped I was about to get my money’s worth. And then… a stone with what looks like a backwards letter C, revealed to me this:

Perth: Initiation (Reversed)
A counsel against expecting too much, or expecting in the ordinary way, for the old way has come to end: you simply cannot repeat the old and not suffer. Call in your scattered energies, concentrate on your own life at this moment, your own requirements for growth. More important, Perth counsels you neither to focus on outcomes nor to bind yourself with the memory of past achievements. For in doing so you rob yourself of a true present, the only time in which self-change can be realized.
You may feel overwhelmed with exhaustion from meeting obstruction upon obstruction in your passage. Yet always you have a choice: you can see this apparent negativity as bad luck, or you can recognize it as an obstacle course, a challenge specific to the Initiation you are presently undergoing. Then each setback, humiliation, becomes a test of character. When you inner being is shifting and reforming on a deep level, patience, constancy and perseverance are called for. So stay centered, see the humor and keep your faith firm.

Banging. Spot on. And just what I needed. Within seconds I could breath again. I noticed I was sitting up straight, feeling taller, more confident, and exactly where I was supposed to be in this world. Whereas only a short time earlier I was denouncing my entire existence and wishing I were on the next plane to Philadelphia.
I instantly became thankful for my broken guitar that has brought me a great challenge night after night on stage. "

-Jason Mraz. 2/13/06

so whether it be a broken guitar. a broken heart. even a broken home.
this is part of life, so we should all just learn to embrace it, rather than question it.
yours- gmt

and then you think.. she is beautiful but she dont mean a thing to me.

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 01:03:44 GMT

i've come to realize that my screen name accurately describes me. she said goodbye. lol
over and over again.

this weekend was really fun. friday i went w/ j squared chlo and christy to the middle of nowhere aka hileah jr aka roxy theatre to see these freaking hilarious comedy/improv group. and im obsessed with zach anddd seth who has a shirt that says HI I'M SETH. i was fun hanging with them. it was so cool to see how much someone can care about me and be aware of my feelings. not that something materialistic shows me that but its really jsut the act behind it. it makes me happy that the things i would do to someone would be returned to me. =) so yeah.. thank you for that. again lol =)
i cant wait to go to boston *crosses fingers* for college. not even boston... just like anywhere but miami. where is the culture?!?! lol i want to be surrounded by art nerds and history and passion and art and SUBSTANCE.. not chongas and daddy yankee. lol but in the same way, i love my miami. i love the beaches.. pools.. tans.. memories.. its all good stuff. but i'm ready. one more.. =)

i'm going to los angeles very fucking soon. and i'm damn excited. all my clothes are laid out on my bed just kinda sitting there. im too lazy to pack but i will. i cant wait to thrift and just spend spend spend. and the BEST part is i found this thrift shop (in LA) that all proceeds go to AIDS research =)

i need to list things or else i'll forget what i'm talking about

1. wicked was so "kdfbjgkdjfkagdajgkjbadbjgjkadbjgkjbadfg" that. thats what it was. i just got the chills thinking about defying gravity. that blew my mind. the fact that we are so technologically advanced to pull that off. good job america. good damn job. my favorite song without a doubt is "for good." i was thinking about recent events and i just started crying hysterically.
i really wish i could sing. its my goal this summer.. along with starting my AIDS project..tanning.. traveling.. SATing.. and more traveling. mark.my.words.
2. the big brothers big sisters picnic was mad cool.. those kids are so amazing. i was in charge of face painting and there was this one little girl who was like i want to be a princess. and she wanted me to make her red lips with blue eye shadow and a crown and all this stuff. it turned out kinda weird but in the end it was like she transformed. she became this little princess. i cant describe it any other way than innocently beautiful. i love those little moments
3. i noticed i have a strong facination for little kids. at work there was this little girl reasoning with her mother as to why she should be able to watch tv. and how she'd give up pizza for two WHOLE weeks if she could watch tv. and her mom kept saying no but the little girl would keep insiting and reasoning. it was so funny. that one hour of tv meant the WORLD to her. later, she came up to me and just started talking to me. how she wanted to be a ballerina just like her mother was. not once did she think she'd be a starving artist, how shed have to maintain a perfect figure, how shed support herself.. no. it was. i want to be a ballerina. i think thats what we all should have in our minds more often. this childlike thinking. some may argue its not reality... but i think we all would go insane worrying about all of lifes demands aka realities. make sense?
34. shadow is getting old.. which is scary because its like the older he gets.. the older i get.. the futher i grow from my childhood. the closer i grow into my adulthood. inserts john mayer line.. <whatever happened to my lunchbox?>
6. my mom has to be by herself for 6 days and shes freakinig out. it jsut remidns me how its going to be when i go off to college. i really am going to miss her as much as i fight with her. i'm gonna be worried you know sicne she'll be all on her own. im such a mom seriously lol
23. i realize i'm not counting in order but i figure why be normal. lol so i think i might want to go into stage managing. there was a little article in the wicked playbill about this man whos a mad sucessful stage manager. who knows.. i could always give a try. how the hell did i just write all of this in like 5 seconds. i just looekd out of my window and saw the moon. ahh so soothing. this weather is bliss.
86. valentines day. im over boycotting it. im embracing it. its just another day that i'll keep valuing my friends and how much i love them. my mom and i were talking and we're like what kind of holiday is valentines days.. its like a reminder day... "oh thats right. i love you!... sorry about that.." lol today i walked into CVS and it was RED. no im not kidding. HEART LOVE BABY KISS BE MINE everywhere. so funny. BUY SELL DEMAND. ay yi yi. is that love?
63. i really love that song 'beating hearts baby' i dont know why. i like FEEL it. u know what i mean? lol im starting to write useless things maybe i should stop here.

well i love each and everyone of you all.
those who read this thing..
those who dont..
those who will..
those who wont..

BAM I JUST RHYMED.
i will update i assume when i get back to L.A. or maybe the night before considering i have to gbe at school at 4 am. might as well not sleep. everyone have a good week and stay warm! and no one say its freezing. go to new york and have no electricity and tell me its still freezing in miami. lol sry for any typos im not going back to re-read.

and dont be negative on tuesday. people who feel the need to boast about their valentine are just insecure.. no this isnt me being pessimist but a.. uh.. searchs for word.. naturalist.

yours truly, gmt

you had your chance so say goodbye..
...say goodbye

NEVER LOOKED BETTER AND YOU CANT STAND IT.

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 00:26:30 GMT

i miss chloe.
: (

wait-
new years is on saturday?
where the HELL did the year go.

i'm so tired and still sick and have no energy to update any more lol more later possibly-
hope all is well

PACE. gmt

its the holidayyy season

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 01:00:12 GMT

seeecond post of the night. i couldnt resist.. NO ONE IS ON and still ahve 20 more minutes of work.. encore

• post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself.
• at the end, list the names of 5 people who you want next to do this.

1. i'm terrified of frogs and sometimes if and when i see one, i see black dots and begin to shake
2. i used to practice my oscar speech in the bathroom and my oscar speech would include how i would practice my oscar speech in the bathroom
3. i get nervous when other people are in charge and find myself imagining what i would do if i had the power
4. i talk to my dog like a normal person and tell him to shut up
5. when i cant think straight i sit up because ms. fayson in 2nd grade told me it makes you smarter
6. when i'm in my car i have a full conversation with myself and sometimes find i'm laughing. at absolutely nothing.

yeah i know i did 6 but hey.

I TAGGG... whoever else is bored like i am!

aka diana chloe heather

i see in different lights =)

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 22:22:01 GMT

i'm gonna be happy with the way i am
i'm gonna be happy with all that i stand for

okay well i'm at work and i'm EXTREMELY bored because all of my boss' clients canceled so they arent coming in until 7 so i have nothing to do for a good 2 hours. now that i told you my LIFE story.. how is everyone? can i tell you how much i'm digging this semi-cold weather? its amazing and i think its definitely puttign everyone in the christmas spirit. so i'm going to recap on everything because i'm bored and because i said so. so there.

actually.. i really dont have all that much to recap on lol. i havent been doing all that much and i've been kinda sick =( but brett and i are starting a club where sick people go and they do activites for them and everythign! whos in? today i was at april cornell (random?) at the falls and i saw my old dermatologist, dr. julien. a while back she got into a really bad car accident and her two kids and husband died..it was the first time i had seen her since the accident. i dont know how she was able to carry on with her life. she was so friendly and lively.. if you were to run into her you would never think of her as a widow. shes my role model. how could she possibly carry on like that? she has nothing left and yet she still wakes up every morning just like you and me. mm its refreshing to know there are still good people left in this world. i cant believe what happened with kelly (how someone at the drive thru at starbucks paid for her and said merry christmas).. i just wish things like that, little mircales if you will heh, would happen more often. not only because its christmas. we should all be good to one another. surprise people. love people. call someone just because. write someone a letter. today i spent a good deal on my mom for christmas and it wasnt until after i left the coach store that i realized, how can money translate to love? i wish i could give my parents and friends everything and anything they have ever wanted, but then again, they would want more of everything and anything, and then what? where would that feeling of satisfaction tie in? we all loved to be spoiled. we all love the materialistic things. we all think christmas means gifts. but maybe slowly we will begin to realize gifts never live on. what i thought was a NECESSITY when i was 7 years old, now seems like something i would give to charity. this ipod we want for christmas will be old by next year and then the following year we will want the newer version. i'm not trying to preach or anything because i'm not one to talk.. i was almost in tears because i lost my coach sunglasses.. but i think by advising others, you gain some sort of knowledge.

my birthday is on saturday. it seems a bit unrealistic. i've been alive for seventeen years. thats old. thats really old. isnt it cool how our body takes so much? i mean that in both ways. how many bruises have i had? how many fingers and ankles have i sprained? how many times have i cried? how many times have i stayed up late? yo body is a beautiful thangg. hah this is the first year in which my mom is giving me a bday/xmas gift.. its kind of weird. so much has changed and its a big reality check.. i'm not a little girl anymore =|

so i think i've broken up what i want to do when i grow up.
1. an MTV news vj (suchin pak and gideon yago) and hopefully being able to travel and work with politics, world issues (AIDs, poverty, etc)
2. an agent (although i dont know if i'd like this job that much.. i dont like having to fight for money and deal with peoples bullshit. it seems like a phony industry.. and i definately dont want people thinking i'm going to be their little bitches- maybe i could be a world agent.. i think i made that up.. but maybe i could go around the country looking for new talent.. like in poor areas in south america africa europe etc.. hmm theres a thought..)
3. founder of an AIDs foundation that incorporates the arts and deals mostly w/ kids whose parents have AIDs
4. some sort of designer.. not sure what kind.. some sort of artsyish job
5. some sort of director. ahh power. my bestfriend.haha
6. this is a very iffy not so sure one but.. SOMETHING with politics.. not necessarily right dab in the middle of the white house.. but mayeb some kind of

i really dont want a 9-5 job. i want to make something of myself and be able to live comfortably. i want to buy my mom a house with servants. i want to send out a message to the world. i want to be respected as a woman and as a role model. maybe i'll jsut stick to being ms. usa. haha i swear i'm kidding.

anyway- eveyrone enjoy their holidays. happy hannukah. merry christmas. and happy new year. i love you all- gmt.

p.s. anyone who is intrested in a PART TIME job at the falls at April Cornelly (its that odd store next to banana republic and sunglass hut.. did you know most of the proceeds made in that store go to charities? hmm) let me know please! they are hiring and the manager is realllly nice.

be so happy with the way you are
just be happy that you made it this far

bliss

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 02:40:44 GMT

you have to laugh at the things that hurt you-
just to keep yourself in balance, just to keep the world from running you plumb crazy

first day of midterms. i cant help but laugh. menasche's cute little midterm was hard. i dont know why i expected it to not be. i'm not really all that worried though i mean i studied what i could and the things i didnt know, i couldnt have studied for so hey.. what does a letter grade really mean anyway? sorry, what i'm worth isnt determined by a letter grade

today i guess was sort of an acceptance day
i let go of people insensibility, lack of comittment, hypocrisy.
i let go of wanting to change things, people, situations.
i let go of the constant pressure and demands i allow myself to be subject to.
i let go of this picture of what i want myself to be.
i let go of asking so many damn questions.
my life will never be steady.. something is bound to happen. but its up to me to control it.
i heard this today and it made me think..
life is all about adapting. life really is all about adapting.

after i did my monologue.. i know i didnt do it well.. i know i dindt work hard on it.. and it didnt phase me one bit. i think its safe to say that i'm done with acting. and i'm okay with it. i picture myself doing an amazing performance in my mind, but when it comes down to it.. nothing connects. i can picture things in my head.. so i think thats what i'll do from now on. maybe i'm a visionary. (thats a real word i looked it up.. although visionarist sounds more suiting.. webster didnt think so)

i always say im just going to write a few lines but always end up writing a novel lol..
i should get back to studying.. i absolutely love this weather.

living, and loving-
gmt

what happens next? what happens next? I DARE YOU TO MOVE.

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 01:56:46 GMT

okay so chloe had this.. and then lisa had this.. and now i'm bored.. and so this is where i waste 10 minutes of my life telling you things you might just already know. enjoy lovers-

[ GENERAL INFO..]
date: 12.10.05
name: gabriela maria tejedor.. aka lemon
birthdate: 12.24.88
age: 16.. 17 very very soon

[ LAST PERSON.. ]
- you touched: mom
- you talked to: mom
- you hugged: my mom.. i swear she stalks me
- you instant messaged: sarah siegeell
- you yelled at: squad. every second of my life.or maybe my dog shadow. hes a riot i swear.
- you kissed: someone very special =)

[ FAVORITE .. ]
- foods: are you asking for my life story? umm sushi.. colombian.. lebanease.. sheeit i like everything except fast food.
- drinks: margarita please? lol umm no i like water actually not gonna lie. or smoothies
- colors: that weird teal bernie and i are o.c.d. with
- album: mraz live cd.. best created.
- shoes: mis chanqletas. wow chonga to the max
- candy: not a fan.. but if anything i like the sour worms or crunch bar
- animals: dogs. i love those bad boys
- tv shows: SIENFELD <3 BEST WEEK EVER
- songs: haha good one. i cant answer this. . for right now its 'all i want for christmas is you' but otherwise its 'plane' by mraz .. atleast at the moment =)
- vegetable: i gdamn love vegetables.. umm spinach.. broccoli.. TOMATOES.. wait i think thats fruit. sheeit.
- cartoon: dora the explorer is kinda cute.

[ WHO DO YOU WANT TO .. ]
- kill: you. hahaha um this is kinda gory.. i dont want to kill anyone. i support world peace. but if i didnt, bush would be a good nomination.
- slap: HAHAHHA. everyone knows that.
- tickle: my little cousinss
- look like: gabii, true story. haha maybe jennifer aniston or catherine zeta jones, but i is straight the way i is.
- talk to offline: my brother or chris
- talk to online: chloe wins this one. heather would win if the answer said who do u want to talk to ur away message.

[ IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU .. ]
- cried? no- ALAS. haha
- helped someone? madre.
- bought something? nope. unless u count a christmas tree.. which my mom bought.
- gotten sick? some stomach thing eh
- gone to the movies? no sadly
- gone out for dinner? i'm afraid not..
- said "i love you"? yesss
- written a real letter? haha a real live one!? no
- moved on? like you dont even know.
- talked to an ex? no thank you.
- missed an ex? no
- talked to someone you have a crush on? mehbehh..
- had a serious talk? haha serious? gabii? i beg to differ
- missed someone? YESS
- hugged someone? uh huhh.
- fought with your parents? lol its what my mom and i do best
- fought with a friend? just messing around yeah.. but otherwise no

[ 1 ] First grade teacher's name: ms. goldberg. I. LOVED. HER.
[ 2 ] Last word you said: outloud? i actually laughed but i think i said 'bye'
[ 3 ] Last song you sang: "stand by me" that mraz covered for
[ 4 ] Last thing you hugged: my computer. no im kidding.. my pillow
[ 5 ] Last thing you laughed at: heather. she completes me.
[ 6 ] Last time you said I don’t remember: about a second ago. honestly what do i remember nowadays?
[ 7 ] Last time you cried: lol the other day.
[ 8 ] What's in your CD player: i havent used a cd player in atleast 2 years. i spilled orange juice on it on my way to texas when i was on step ahead lol
[ 10 ] What's under your bed: a pole or something
[ 11 ] What time did you wake up today: 7:10 for work damnit
[ 12 ] Current taste: nothingness
[ 13 ] Current hair: messy and up.
[ 14 ] Current clothes: my favorite jcrew shirt and jeans
[ 15 ] Current annoyance: im just gonna copy exactly what lisa wrote "midterms that i'm not going to study for." amen.
[ 16 ] Current nail color: all naturallee baby
[ 17 ] Current desktop picture: a picture of myself haha its because i made it look cool i swear.
[ 18 ] Current worry: worry? umm sorry i dont worry my life away anymore
[ 19 ] Current hate: peace baby!
[ 20 ] Current favourite article of clothing: my pajama pants
[ 21 ] Favourite physical feature of the opposite sex: ojos.
[ 22 ] Last album that you listened to: matchbox 20
[ 23 ] Favourite place to be: why are you spelling it favourite? are u british? umm somewhere with the people i love. but i think new york, colombia, or peru works nicely. but on a realistic level- the beach.
[ 24 ] Least favourite place: math class.
[ 25 ] Time you wake up in the morning: 6:08 AM
[ 26 ] If you could play an instrument: drums and piano.
[ 27 ] Favourite colour: bro short term memory. now im gonna change my mind and go with gold.
[ 28 ] Do you believe in an afterlife: why the hell not
[ 29 ] How tall are you: 5'3"
[ 30 ] Current favourite word/saying: BUENO! and BRO!
[ 31 ] Favourite book: walk two moons, how to be happy dammit, shopaholic, tuesdays with morrie
[ 32 ] Favourite season: winterr <3 if thats what you call this weather lol
[ 33 ] One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: my grandfather..
[ 34 ] Favourite day: friday
[ 35 ] How long do you usually sleep every night: 8 hours or something

[[[ FUTURE ]]]
[ 35 ] Where do you want to go: im gonna be a travel freak but mostly africa
[ 36 ] What is your career going to be like: you'll see.
[ 37 ] How many kids do you want: 2 and adopt one i think
[ 38 ] What kind of car will you have: an audi. red. =)

[[[ HAVE YOU EVER... ]]]
[Gotten in a fight w/your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc] shadow and i are on good terms for the moment.
[ Been to New York?: ] are you kidding? of coursee <3.
[ Been to Florida?: ] maybe.. dont remember lol
[ San Diego, Cali?: ] no but im going to L.A. SOON!! ahh squad takes on l.a. get ready for it
[ Hawaii?: ] soon
[ Mexico?: ] uh huh
[ China?: ] no thanks. totally kidding.
[ Canada?: ] NO but i was going to go after bush got reelected lol
[ Danced naked?: ] yeah probably
[ Wanted to be the opposite sex: ] haha when its that time of the month.

[[[ RANDOM ]]]
[ Do you have a crush on someone?: ] a little more than a crush
[ What book are you reading now?: ] angela's ashes. super good
[ Worst feeling in the world: ] being alone. =/
[ What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: ] what time is it!?.
[ Future daughter's name: ] myranda or kate
[ Future son's name: ] something really weird
[ Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: ] no with my baby pillow though
[ If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be?: ] big time designer, film actress, or director of some sort
[ Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous?: ] neither. righty
[ College plans: ] b.u. hopefully maybe new yorkk?
[ Piercings: ] 3

[[[ THE EXTRA STUFF ]]]
[ Do you drink alcoholic drinks: ] haha how proper. yes
[ Who is your best friend?: ] me. and those other hoes.. they know who they are
[ What are you most scared of?: ] failure.. how original
[ What clothes do you sleep in?: ] an old competition shirt and pajamas
[ Who is the last person that called you?: ] chris
[ Where do you want to get married?: ] somewhere that isnt cliche
[ If you could change anything about yourself what would that be?:] i'm constantly a work in progress. i think it would be not worrying
[ Who do you really hate?: ] promise not to tell?
[ Favorite number: ] .083902
[ Been In Love?: ] no
[ What Type Automobile Do You Drive: ] my baby kate 5.
[ Are You Timely Or Always Late: ] timely.
[ Do You Have A Job: ] yes "thank you for calling il movimento this is gabii may i help you"
[ Do You Like Being Around People: ] what are people?
[ Best feeling in the world: ] knowing someone is thinking about you and just smiling =) mmm
[ Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: ] haha.. maybe
[ Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: ] to be with me right now yes
[ Are You Lonely Right Now: ] i'm heree without you babyyyy
[ Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: ] yep.. not because i wont find someone but because of the whole marriage thing
[ Do You Want To Get Married: ] .. when the time is right.
[ Do You Want Kids: ] yeah

love-

i love being me. -jason mraz

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 18:48:31 GMT

i wont worry my life away

well well well yep its me guys- how is everyone? swell i hope! lets do a quick recap, jason mraz w/ two amazing people chris and elyse.. one of the best nights of my life =) =) =), saw bwex last night miss that girl like crazy, did a backhandspring for the first time in 2 years lol, been working on our large group musical- which i will say IS stressful, but i know it will be worth it in the end, went to one acts and placed for states-partayyy, got my effing CAR back- i can take off miami auto collision from speedial (anyone want to take the lucky number 7 on my speed dial?), been having crazy family issues which have really helped me to be so much more optomistic on life. well i love you guys. no really, i do. everyone keep your chin up because when do you get to live this moment again. this moment right now? this very second?

midterms are going to be over soon. (you like my positive approach to that?)

chris comes home soon!!! :)

christmas is soon.

my birthday is sooner. by a day to be exact.

life is amazing right now. just because im making it amazing.
it's scaring me how things are going to start speeding up.
i cant imagine my life without my friends- but its soon to be reality.
so its time to live it up and stop worrying my life away.

heather, chloe, diana, elyse, and bernie-
thank you girls for everything lately.

and everyone else too dont worry!

world peace, friendly love, and the pursuit of happiness

lets get this heart start beating again.

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 02:15:38 GMT

everything has been going amazing
i've had so much fun with my friends lately

but somethings missing. of course.
am i ever satisfied?

everyday i know you're not thinking of me
i'm losing a place in your memory.

i hate feeling this way. its so stupid. i think it's just that i've been ignoring all these little things

and now i'm about to be knocked down.

i need a vacation

this is so much more than what's being written. i know my life isnt horrible and i know i have it easy. but i miss the little things i was supposed to have when they i was growing up. i think i want this so bad because i know i wont get it. i want to replace things. one for another.

i'm gonna be fine, always am and always will be,
and you know thats my favorite line
you should know by now
cause i use it all the time
when i'm dieing inside

mmm.. i really am okay

gmt

attttennntion!

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 02:53:50 GMT

PLEASE GOO LOVERSSS!! i'm in it!! so is some other unimportant people! haha i kid i kid

life is good. mmm <33
gmt

what i give to you. is just what i'm going through. this is nothing new.

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 20:29:06 GMT

time is on your side
hello children of the universe. i havent updated in 20+ years so i figured well hot damn i might as well!

see this is why i hate posting because i never know where to begin.. you're probably like well from the beginning of course.. but where exactly is the beginning? so many things have been happening that i cant possibly begin to pinpoint a place to start. so im goign to talk about random things. because if there is one thing that defines me.. it'd be random. i hate it when people say that tho.. "omg shes so random." "omg that was so random" shut the hell up.
okay lol sorry anyway- VMAs was skrrraighttt... kelly clarkson was by far the coolest person there, jamie foxx and i are engaged to be married pretty soon, gwen stefani looked hottt i love her, saw coldplay front fucking rowww!!!, kanye west is so cool, fiddy cent has decreased in value and is a complete uneducated MORON, puffdaddy w/e the fuck is an idiot. umm so yeah it was cool and i was with rafff <3 who i miss dearly. he saved my ass so many times.. literally..nicole was damn hilarious i freaking love that girl IS THIS SOME KIND OF SICK JOKE!?. chloe and i rubbed off on eachothers bad moods lol and heather met luda. enough said. lmao. and diana was just diana freaking obnoxiously funny. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR KELLY!? muahah. i always hate when ppl put inside jokes on this thing, but its like i cant resist you know? thats a rhetorical question. BOO yeah menasche. atleast i think it is.
family issues are so blah. my dad is. i cant even find an appropriate word. i think that growing up sucks. scratch that. GROWING UP SUCKS. you are corrupted from the made up world that was just so perfect. why did they rush us to grow up?
i miss my brother like its my day job. yesterday when i was at cafe di.. yeah cant spell it.. to watch dove play (who by the way is fucking amazing and it makes me jealous to see someone with such passion and like dedication.. and makes me question.. hmm so what exactly is my purpose? i dont know if acting is my thing anymore. so now what do i do now. i kidna want to leave US and go somewhere else to study, london? australia? AFRICA?!).. so back to what i was saying.. being at that cafe reminded me of my brother since he loves jazz and all. he'll be home soon i hope :( maybe for my birthday which is so soon. yes 5 months is very soon.

it just sucks just being my mom and i. :/ i cant imagine going to college and really being by myself. i hope i'm never a widow.
school is well.. school. im doing ok in my classes.. too many B's for comfort. i got a B in conduct in puig lol. whatever i dont care anymore im so over it. rehearsal for mederos is going amazing i love everyone in the cast so its awesome.
so homecomming.. i dont know whats happeneing but im getting crunk bitches. lol i have my dress. im gonna look like im ready for halloween but hey, its on october 1st so i'll bring in the fashion. ok that made no sense.

i love music. it really makes me happy. i want to get a music related tattoo. i know, thats a bit extreme, but hey. omg this kid thought i had a star tattoo pahaha.
damn i want a puppy so bad. not that i dont love shadow, i really do, but i just want a cute little puppy to lay in my beddd with and awwww :)!
chloe and i are getting married in california bitch. so rsvp to the invitations please.
my history teacher said something the other day that PISSED ME OFF. he goes "america is the greatest country in the world" okay how much of a republican comment is that. i hate this. i hate how we think we are on top of the world. it isnt AMERICA.. and every other country.. its the WORLD, including every state country and continent! UGH i fucking hate bush. kanye west was damn funny "bush hates black people" hahahah
everything that happened in new orleans is just so shocking. i mean i was pissed because i didnt have electricity for a few days. but shit. they're left with n o t h i n g. i hope everyone is contributing something. while i'm on my laptop, some kid is wondering what they're gonna eat tonight. and not only in new orleans but everywhere else in the world. hm.. how ungreatful do you feel now?

this school year hasnt started off that well, but i gotta believe and have strength like my necklace says :) ilove that necklace by the way.
i went clubbing the other night. weirdest experience i've ever had. chongas scare me. they are taking over the universe.

things have been so weird lately. with people in particular. im tired of being mistreated but i still take it. i want to just finallly completely let go, but like ive told myself so many times before (that sounds like a maroon 5 quote.. she said goodbye too many times before. lol k sorry) you cant let go of something you never had. i strive on those little moments when things are so great. but then i find things out (aka reality) and its back to being thrown on the floor. BLAH BLAH BLAH
so many frusturations and tensions lately.. i hate you for trying to love me. does that make sense? i love not being so blunt. it makes things a little more intresting. p.s. i realized i cant spell, hence why i got a D on my last vocab quiz. it makes me mad. so anytime i mispell something tell me k? k!
ive stopped holding so many grudges suprisingly. i think it just started getting to me. and menasche brainwashed me.
i hope everyone has been well and i'll try to keep updating so you can be fulfilled with my novels, true life: GABii

unti then- optomistically yours-

I'LL BE FINE,
just give me time gmt.

don't go worrying about me. it's not like i go worry about it constantly. well maybe i do.

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 15:56:13 GMT

gotta find another way to keep from going under.

im tired of people. i want to go to college. i dont want people to leave for college..
atleast i'm going to the vmas. :)
i want a new layouttt.. someone help me.. this is my pleaddddd.
my other 1/2 is in new york :( miss you bernie
school starts in litterally 5 seconds. i'm already having crazy dreams about it.
i dont want to see two peoples faces.
i have nothing else to say.
ugh- gmt

i'd rather say nothing.
i'd rather you never heard my voice.
you're calling too late.

mistakes we knew we were making

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 14:35:09 GMT

i know this hurts, it was meant to.

hmm.. what should i write. im just going to write randomly. what i do best :) . i'm kinda scared for the first day of school. its when reality will really begin to set in about SATs and college and stuff. i dont want to get my hopes up, but i reallllly want to go to new york for college. really bad. i dont want to see puigs face. i dont want to see someone elses face either. everyone else i kinda miss.

i was trying so hard to fit in until i found out that..
i dont belong here. i dont belong

i dont like it when people make me feel guilty about things that i dont have control over. such as their own faults.
which is why technically i dont feel guilty. but just a little.
but for the most part i dont.

why'd you fill my sorrow, with the words you borrowed?

i cant stand my dad. he's full of shit.full of shittttt.
i havent seen him in a while. i'm surprised my cell phone hasnt been disconnected yet.
i miss my cousin.. a lot. i want to be just like her. i hate not having family here.

it's always refreshing meeting new people. and whatever it is that will happen is up to fate.
but i think its safe to say this is the start of something good, dont you agree? thank you gavin. <3

i love my friends. they are mad fun. i miss the old ones a lot too. i feel like im running out of time to see everyone i havent seen. eveyrthing will happen at its time.
i really want to share my horoscope with everyone. because it scares me.
You're used to being in charge. Most of the time it's because you've been either officially or unofficially elected to the post. At the moment, it's again up to you to make an executive decision.
its scary because its so true. :-X

music has really taken over my life. to the point where i think i popped an ear drum. it wont stop beating lol.
well a few weeks until school starts. sigh. oh boyy..
happy birthday heather if your randomly reading this in san fran ;)

ps anyone intrested in Big Brother Big Sister let me know and i'll give you an application.

hopefully yours- gmt.

i wont walk out until you know.

mad caddies "good intentions" go download.

Rolling away with my good intentions
Trying to go with my mind
Said i'm walking the line
Flying away with my same desire, yeah
Oh, I'm trying to get to the heart of what's bringing me down
Moving alone I feed the fire
And with the temptation all around just laughing at me

So I try my hardest to keep my hands clean
And I stop from looking for the things that I can't find
If I'm ever gonna walk the line.

AND. IT'S. PEOPLE. LIKE. YOU. THAT. MAKE. ME. SICK.

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 00:54:27 GMT

i'm so furious with many people right now. but i cant say anything!!!! HOW FRUSTURATING. ITS SO FUNNY HOW PEOPLE ARE. I MEAN THEY SAY SO MUCH BULLSHIT BUT WHEN IT COMES ALL DOWN TO IT.. THEY DO SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT. WHY DO PEOPLE LOVE BEING HYPOCRITES? I MEAN I DONT CARE IF ITS SOMETHING SMALL.. BUT NO. DONT SPEAK ABOUT SOMETHING SOOOO PATIONATELY AND THEN COMPLETELY CONTRADICT YOURSELF!!!!!!!! AND THEN HIDE IT BEHIND MY FUCKING BACK.. BECAUSE YOU THINK HEYYY SHE WONT FIND OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU'RE DOING. BECAUSE I WONT EVER SAY ANYTHING AND NO ONE WILL EVER SAY ANYTHING TO YOU.. OR YOU.. OR YOU. THIS ISNT A MATTER OF SOMEONE ASKING ME "ARE YOU OKAY?" OR "DID SOMETHING HAPPEN?" BECAUSE THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS THAT I'M GOING TO BE JUST FINE, BUT I HAVE TO VENT AND LET GO OF THIS FALSE HOPE IN PEOPLE. THE ONLY PERSON I CAN BE HOPEFUL FOR, IS MY SELF. JUST AFJKBG93892DJKFABGKFJDG. I DONT KNOW WHY I EVEN CARE OR WHY I'M PHASED BY OTHER PEOPLES ACTIONS. BUT THIS IS GOING TOO FAR. IT REALLY FUCKING IS. I'M GOING TO SAY THIS NEXT QUOTE PHRASE THING AS IF I BELIEVE IT. WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND. sigh. anyway, these two songs are on replay my stereo. so i'm going to copy and paste them onto this damn thing. because they have to do a lot with what i'm thinking. read them. dont read them. i dont care.
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.okay i'm done.

alanis morissette- narcissus

Dear momma's boy I know you've had your butt licked by your mother
I know you've enjoyed all that attention from her
And every woman graced with your presence after
Dear narcissus boy I know you've never really apologized for anything
I know you've never really taken responsibility
I know you've never really listened to a woman

Dear me-show boy I know you're not really into conflict resolution
Or seeing both sides of every equation
Or having an uninterrupted conversation

And any talk of healthiness
And any talk of connectedness
And any talk of resolving this
Leaves you running for the door

why why do I try to love you
Try to love you when you really don't want me
To

Dear egotist boy you've never really had to suffer any consequence
You've never stayed with anyone longer than ten minutes
You'd never understand anyone showing resistance
Dear popular boy I know you're used to getting everything so easily
A stranger to the concept of reciprocity
People honor boys like you in this society

And any talk of selflessness
And any talk of working at this
And any talk of being of service
Leaves you running for the door

why why do I try to help you try to help you
When you really don't want me to

You go back to the women who will dance the dance
You go back to your friends who will lick your ass
You go back to ignoring all the rest of us
You go back to the center of your universe

Dear self centered boy I don't know why I still feel affected by you
I've never lasted very long with someone like you
I never did although I have to admit I wanted to
Dear magnetic boy you've never been with anyone who doesn't take your shit
You've never been with anyone who's dared to call you on it
I wonder how you'd be if someone were to call you on it

And any talk of willingness
And any talk of both feet in
And any talk of commitment
Leaves you running for the door

why why do I try to change you try to
Try to change you when you really don't
Want me to

You go back to the women who will dance the dance
You go back to your friends who will lick your ass
You go back to being so oblivious
You go back to the center of the universe

okay so now i'm going to put the second song. because this song is really my life story. and i just have to let it out. thanks to heather who i stole this from by the way.

dashboard confessional- the best deceptions

I heard about your trip.
I heard about your souvenirs.
I heard about the cool breeze, in the cool nights,
and the cool guys that you spent them with.
Well I guess I should have heard of them from you.
I guess I should have heard of them from you.

Don't you see, don't you see,
that the charade is over?
And all the "Best Deceptions" and "Clever Cover Story" awards go to you.
So kiss me hard
'cause this will be the last time that I let you.
You will be back someday
and this awkward kiss that screams of other people's lips will be of service
to keeping you away.

I heard about your regrets.
I heard that you were feeling sorry.
I heard from someone that you wish you could set things right between us.
Well I guess I should have heard of them from you.
I guess I should have heard of them from you.

I'm waiting for blood to flow to my fingers,
I'll be all right when my hands get warm.Ignoring the phone,
I'd rather say nothing. I'd rather you'd never heard my voice.
You're calling too late
too late to be gracious you do not warrant long goodbyes.

what i am to you

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 22:07:19 GMT

thanksss alekssaa lol bolded shit means ive done it
() smoked a cigarette
() smoked a cigar
() crashed a friend's car..
() stolen a car
() been in love
() been dumped
() shoplifted it was stupid tho.. these clips from jcrew
() been fired brother lol
() been in a fist fight
() snuck out
() had feelings for someone who didn't have them backof course mann
() made out with a stranger well i knew him sorta for like 2 hours..
() gone on a blind date it wasnt a date. but we went to dinner .. and i had never met/seen him
() lied to a friend
() had a crush on a teacher ... haha coradinoooo haha not
() been to Europe
() skipped school
() seen someone die
() had a crush on one of your myspace friends... HAHA whattt
() been to Canada
() been to Mexico
() been on a plane
() seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
() thrown up in a bar
() purposely set a part of myself on fire
() eaten Sushi sushi maki and i are best friends who are u kidding?
() been snowboarding
() met someone in person from the internet dahhnii.. oh man hahahah no comment
() been moshing at a concert
() been in an abusive relationship
() taken painkillers
() love someone or miss someone right now
() laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
() made a snow angel
() had a tea party yeah thats right
() paid for a meal with only coins u know how i do
() done something you told yourself you wouldn't
() made prank phone calls when you were younger
() laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
() caught a snowflake on your tongue
() danced in the rain
() written a letter to Santa Claus
() been kissed under the mistletoe... NO IM WAITING THO!
() watched the sun rise with someone you care about
() blown bubbles
() made a bonfire on the beach
() crashed a party
() gone rollerskating
() had a wish come true (3/5/04 and another one :) )
() humped a monkey ....all night baby!
() worn pearls almost everyday!
() jumped off a bridge
() screamed penis in public seann and jlew and bwex good timessss
() ate dog/cat food
() told a complete stranger you loved them .. just kidding tho.. well wen i said it to Adam Levine i wastn kidding
() kissed a mirror
(x) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress
(x) had a dream that you married someone (adamm! and ... )
() got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
() kissed a fish
() been a cheerleader s.a.s :(
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
() gone sledding
() cheated while playing a game scrablle anyone?
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
() used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
() felt an earthquake...
(x) touched a snake
() slept beneath the stars *
(x) been tickled
() been robbed
(x) been misunderstood
(x) petted a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
() ran a red light accident i swear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
() been suspended from school
() been in a car accident (dont remind me)
() had braces
(x) felt like an outcast
() eaten a whole pint of tofutti cutie in one night... WHO!??! WHAT THE FUCK?
() had deja vu ... NO.. LIKE I DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND THAT..
() hated the way you look
() witnessed a crime
() pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
() been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
() played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
() sung karaoke FOR MICHEAL YO ON Y-100. I KNOW UR JEALOUS!!!
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
() done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 4 hours...
(x) stayed up all night
() didn't take a shower for a week... yeah yeah say what you want assholes lo
() picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
() had a tree house still do actually
() are scared to watch scary movies
() believe in ghosts.. NO SPIRIT THO..
() have more than 30 pairs of shoes
() worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
(x) played ding-dong-ditch
(x) played chicken
(x) pushed into a pool/lake with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're beautiful by a complete stranger
(x) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused THIS RIGHT NOW IS AMUSING ME. SAD BUT TRUE.
(x) caught a fish then ate it
() caught a butterfly..
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) mooned/flashed someone NOT PURPOSELY THO
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
() had a Britney Spears CD (HIT ME BABY ONE MORE TIME!
(x) forgotten someone's name? oh man all the time lmao i have short term to the max
() slept naked
(x) French braided someone's hair
() grown mentally.. definitly

okay now thati wasted about 15 minutes of my life and i know u wont read this.. lol adios gmt

be so happy with the way you are <3

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 23:55:00 GMT

i get the news i need on the weather report :)

first time in a while i write in here when im in a good mood lol so i should probably spill about the concert huh? yes yes i must. i dont know how to put pics up but look at chlo's journal for them (http://www.livejournal.com/users/shooting_starre/) so lets start from the beginning.. so i get to heath's and shes making a huge sign that says WE LOVE TO JIVE WITH MAROON 5. i then become the color coordinator and tell her what colors to use on the sign :) then we stuff our stuff in the car and VROOM we're off to chloes house to pick her up.. after her taking a year to come out of the car and us honking the horn obnoxiously her little sick self comes bouncing out.. so then we're really off and to a GREAT start. who knows what we're talking about. then we get lost but not really.. so then we pass by all these like historical places like .. like.. i cant think of any right now.. but all the stuff Karen Kurtis from Y-100 says! so i'm imitating her and its just dandy..

so then the moment arrives and we reach the place (after passing a million and one toll plazas with all the hispanic people.. one lady was even singing haha) . AHHH so chills are all down my back and we walk out and see all these girls in abercrombie head to toe.. with these small skirts and like the whole "i want to look like im poor but im rich" look. funniest thing ever. please note heath chlo and me were sporting our M5 shirts.. yeah those are true fans. so we are waiting in line.. and these skinny blonde comes up to us with a honda civic tour shirt and shes like "OMG I LOVE YOUR SHIRTS! did you make them?" and we're like noo.. we got them at jingle ball... pretty cool so she was small talking with us and we noticed she was in charge of the meet and greet and ahhhhhhhh but then shes like well i gotta get back to work >:o. oh welll so then all of a sudden this girl starts screaming ' I WON THE CAR I WON THE CAR' turns out she won the hondo civic hybird that had been auctioned by y-100.. yeah lucky biatch. so micheal yo greeted her and i took a pic of him.. now this is where it gets better.. so we walk in.. and theres micheal yo himself. so we walk over to the y-100 booth.. and we're like 'OUR HOMIES!!'so we tell them how we are such avid listeners and stuff and he (micheal yo) is like im gonna put u guys on the radio.. HOLY SHIT. so he's like what aer ur namesss whos ur fav band member (ADAMM!!!) and all that stuff it was wayy too cool! :) and so then i did karoke to brit spears im a slave for u.. and i was a tad bit off key.. but for being a sport micheal yo gave me a shirt and signed it for me hehe :-P it was really cool they were really nice !

so then we go to our seats and turns out elyse and geoff are lost haha and they dont want to stop and ask for directions.. so then we decide to move our seats up a bit.. i was so scared lol i dont knwo why i felt so bad.. so we turned out having really good seats.. front row of our section :) thanks to heathers leadership/boldness.. elyse and geoff also joined us so it was all complete. so then the donnas open. oh GOD. they were horrible. they go "our album is on sale for 5 dollars thats how punk rock we are" no one laughed. what losers. they looked like screaming cows lol. okay so then the moment came...

TUN DUN DUN all of a sudden <3 <3 adam.. mickey.. JAMES!.. jess.. and matt flynn ENTER THE STAGE! the crowd is going crazy im cutting off chloes hand its all just so beautiful. everything that happeend after that is just .. i jsut cant write it in words. no matter how old i get.. i will always love maroon 5. mark my words. together, seperate, dead, no matter what i'll be there :) can i jsut tell you that Highway to Hell (when Ryan came out as a surprise) was amazing.. it started something liek this: Adam was like "we have a serious issue to address" so heather and i are like ohh crap its the elections so heather starts screaming "KERRY KERRY KERRY!" lmao funny shit.. but then he's like 'as you all know ryan hasnt been able to tour with us.. well we have a surprise ... " AND TAA DAA THERES MY RY RY!! the entire night i was living a dream. it was simply amazing. i couldnt have asked for more. i'm so grateful :)

sadly, the concert came to an end (after an AMAZING encore, i must add) and we went to go hunt my loves down. so this fat lady was like oh they already left so heath's like well then whats that (point to a tour bus) and shes like thats for the set.. haha who puts sets in busses? but hey! so we are looking for heather's mom .. and we are in the middle of nowhere.. looking for area 3 or something? and not even the security guards know where the hell that is. chloe sounds like a man on steroids because shes sick.. heathers trying to guide us even tho she has NO idea where shes going.. and im still in awe about the concert. what a trio! we finally get into the car and off to the hotel we go. TRY THE COMFORT INN.. hello can we get ANYMORE comfort? exact quote from heath.. "if this isnt five star than i dont know what is!" lmao <3 so yeah it smelled like ciggs and vanilla .. which is wat heaths gma supposedly smells like lol.. so im freaked out and paranoid but i eventually go to sleep. go to sleep for TWO HOURS that is. CHLOES SNORING LIKE A MAD WOMAN BECAUSE SHES SICK.. BUT WAIT. thats not the only one snoring.. noooo... HEATHER IS TOO!!!!!!!!! but i took up the entire bed so it was not that bad. but boy!so then we wake up and have a continental breakfast. YEAH thats right i said it. haha i ate like a mofo and i didnt eat meat because it was good friday. put the halo on me already. :) so off to the beach we go. can i just say how gorgeous it was? too bad it was negative 3.4 degrees. it was gorgeous tho.. then we saw m5's hotel .. yeah thats right. we have a pic and everything. sigh. overall it was the highlight of my spring break. i wouldnt change it for the world and am so grateful and glad i was in such great company. <3

well i hope i recapped enough on the concert.. lol if u want videos or pics hollller at me. okay so spring break was good i got tan saw some of my fave palmetto cuties.. had to hear how much fun my loves were having in NY.. saw my new world buddyyy :-p lol.. and i also cleared things up someone whom i've been at war with forever and a day. and i can say that this is how its going to remain. im not fighting anymore and i know he isnt. yes i know you`re all like yeah bullshit.. but id ont really need to prove myself anymore. its my business and thats that.

so state is coming up.. come on how excitied are you. ahhh i really cant wait. i dont want to be at my house. theres always soem kind of fight with my mom.. big or small its so annoying. i cant wait to be away for 5 days without having to take orders all day!! AHHH and im gonna be with my favorite kind of people.. drama kidss wooo!!! so can i just say.. summer is weeks away.. holy shit. i cant wait. last summer was amazing i dont care what anyone says. it will be different this summer thats for sure. but i know everything thats needs to fall in place will :) AHHH i cant wait.

well thank u to the 2 people who probablly read all of this lol.. anyway i love you guys and miss many of you.. keep posting on your journals so i can know whats up!!

with much enthusiasm <3 gmt.

take it slow- quickly! -Jesse, m5